11 Oct “Convicted and Grateful” by Ann Webb
“Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:4-7
I love these words and the promise they guarantee. These days I find myself convicted that I have not made the choice to rejoice in several areas of my life. On the surface level alone, there is my dread of winter. If you’ve spent any time with me over the last couple weeks, you have undoubtedly heard me lament over the arrival of Fall and the impending winter weather to come. I am not a fan of cold and dark. For all who have had to endure my whining, please forgive me for my childish behavior.
Of course, I am rejoicing as I embrace HIS many blessings. Watching my son grow into a loving, devoted father makes my heart sing. There are not enough words to describe how many ways HE has blessed me when it comes to my granddaughter. Experiencing life and love through their relationship turns my heart to joy-filled celebration often. Rejoicing over these things is easy… no reminder needed.
Then there are the other changes- changes at work, with family, and friends. Loved ones gone for now or permanently. Shake-ups in my inner circle that have left me feeling more like a defiant toddler than a grateful, blessed mother and grandmother.
HE speaks softly to my heart. HE is my inner circle, and all I need. If I had nothing else, no one else, I would still have everything. HE reminds me of all the times I have been in this place before, grieving over seasons that ultimately took me places I never would have gone without change. HE reminds me that changes come whether I rejoice in HIM or not. In the quiet moments when I stand refusing to bend, to relent, to acknowledge that HE knows best and is working for my good, HE reminds me that I’d rather be in the darkest, coldest of winters with HIM than on the sunniest beach without HIM.
This simple truth brings a smile to my heart and face. Thankful that conviction brings repentance and heart change. I am forgiven and am ready to rejoice in HIM always! The Son shines bright in my heart as I seek HIS truth and trust HIS promises.