03 Oct “Jesus For The Win” by Ann Webb
The largest looming giant in my life these days is my health, or more specifically, the impact my weight has on my health and ability to serve well. Over the last six years just about every annual checkup includes advice that I consider surgical intervention. Until recently, I flat out refused to even consider it.
Last year my employer offered a health screening option with the advantage of reducing my out-of-pocket medical costs if I participate. This was a win/win opportunity for me. September 2016, I was prayerfully lighter and healthier than I’d been in years. My numbers were in the green (other than weight/BMI). I was exercising more and feeling better than I had in a long time. When I followed up with my primary care doctor in November, there was no discussion of surgery.
Fast forward to September 2017 and my current health screening – the picture is not so rosy. My weight has gone up a bit; some of my good green measures are now yellow. My health is impacting my ability to sleep. I am defeated. Be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go. Joshua 1:9 I come to the sad decision that if I cannot turn things around and meet my mini-goal (the same mini-goal I’ve had for the past two years) by my annual checkup in November, I will proceed with surgery. God is my strength and power, and He makes my way perfect. He makes my feet like the feet of deer, and sets me on my high places. 2 Samuel 22:33-34
I reached out to my care group asking them to pray specifically that I would be obedient to His calling on my life when it comes to food and exercise. I can do all this through him who gives me strength. Yet it was good of you to share in my troubles. Philippians 4:13. While I am not afraid of surgery, I believe in my heart that for me to have it now is akin to me saying, “My weakness is greater than Your strength. I am unwilling to submit to You in this area of my life.”
For the past ten days I have sought to remain submitted, eat healthy, stand in His strength when temptations come my way, and to thank and praise Him for His Lordship in my life. Until yesterday, part of me was still fearful that my weakness was greater than His strength, that I might fail again and choose surgery. The journey, as I have been walking it, is long and exhausting. The god of all grace, who called you to His eternal glory in Christ, will Himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. 1 Peter 5:10
As I sat in the sanctuary hearing the opening message of our new six-week sermon series focusing on His victory over our giants, I could hear Him telling me, “I will remind you of my strength. I will not be defeated. I am renewing you: body, mind and spirit so that you can serve however I lead. Victory exists in me alone.” I do not doubt that as this series ends and my annual checkup arrives, He will have won this victory for me. My eyes are off the scale and on my Savior — the defeater of giants, the giver of dreams. “I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11