28 Feb “Understanding Identity” by Maggie Hutchins
From the time we’re born we’re constantly trying to figure out what we’re into. As a kid, I constantly was changing my mind on what I wanted to be when I grew up. From Librarian to Broadway actress to songwriter, my dreams and goals were constantly changing and the things I pursued changed with them. In many ways, the time and effort I spent on pursuing those things shaped who I would become. I still love getting lost among the books in an old bookstore or library, I still blast Broadway and Disney songs and dance around (although I have little to no dancing ability), and I still get a rush sitting down at a piano and telling stories through the music. Truthfully, from the time we’re born, we start creating an identity for ourselves and sometimes it’s not just a result of what we said when we were asked what we wanted to be when we grow up. Oftentimes, our identity is shaped by both beautiful and painful experiences that we’ve had.
But then Christ comes on the scene. And everything changes.
Even growing up in a Christ-centered home, I had so much baggage coming into my relationship with Christ. Lies I believed that I struggled with constantly, and habits that I thought were impossible to break. I would come running to my Father in prayer, sobbing and hoping that He’d still love me even though my identity screamed “disaster” over me. It was in those moments that I would hear the voice of Jesus saying that my identity wasn’t found in what I did right or wrong, but rather in what He did for me.
A verse in Galatians comes to mind in verses 18-20 when it says: “18 For if I rebuild what I have once destroyed, I prove myself to be a transgressor. 19 For through the Law I died to the Law, so that I might live to God. 20 I have been crucified with Christ; and it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself up for me.” (NASB)
This is grace in action. This is the Gospel. That the identity I found in the world would never be good enough- but the identity I have as a new creation in my Savior. In Him, everything changes and the very things that I thought were too big for Him, weren’t deal breakers. He is making all things new.